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Usual Update
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Once again, I am updating. I have been deviantdead for a while, but I do check about every 4-7 months. I'm really busy so I don't have the time to check as much as I did before. But I am very excited. Christmas Eve is tomorrow, which means my Oma's(German for Grandma) Christmas is tomorrow night. Christmas is Saturday. January 3rd is my boyfriend and my 1 year anniversary and February 7th is my 18th birthday. Let's just say I'm super excited to finally be able to get a tattoo 
Too much has happened to post it all on here. But it's whatever, some things are important and some aren't. I just don't feel like broadcasting everything to everyone, so I'll just leave it at this. I miss you guys </3
Too much has happened to post it all on here. But it's whatever, some things are important and some aren't. I just don't feel like broadcasting everything to everyone, so I'll just leave it at this. I miss you guys </3
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For those who care
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I decided to do a little update here on deviantart so I don't seem dead to you all. That jackass I posted pictures about, we broke up. Done, absolutely done. He's going into the marines and after stalking and harassing me I'm glad. On the other hand I am dating my bestfriend who is absolutely amazing. I hope we last for a very long time. He seems to complete me and loves me for me. Even with all the defects I hold and hide from the public and common eye. Also spiders seem to keep finding their way into my car, giving me panic attacks since these are my most hated and despised fear. I do in fact get panic attacks and it is not pretty. So from heart break, to love, to panic attacks; I am not dead, simply busy and unable to get on the computer much. If you miss me, let me know and I will try to be on more. If you don't miss me, then don't bother I suppose. Thanks and goodnight.
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I'm in
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love with this boy.
His name is Justin Nelson. :]]
Ilyyyyy.
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If I lay here
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Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
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A little something about Miss Jenny.
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1.
What is more difficult: looking into someones eyes when telling how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they tell you how they feel?
both is difficult, but i would rather have someone be honest with me.
2. Think of the last time you were angry.
Why were you angry?
some asshole was pissing me off. i call him my brother.
3. You will die in three minutes.
Last call?
because my parents are here. i would call danni and tell her how much she changed me, michelle how amazing of a friend she is, kaitlyn and let her know that she can do anything she wants, britney that it was so much fun being her friend and to never forget that girl she used to be, and justin and let him know how i truely feel about him.
4.
If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be?
make my friends like jackass, because crazyyy people are the best and the most fun.
5. You can have one of the following two things: trust or love.
you cant truely love someone without having complete trust in them. thats how it goes.
6. You are walking to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss told you if you are late one more time youre fired.
Do you save the dog?
in a heartbeat. i dont care if i get fired or not, life is more important than any amount of money.
7.
Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
only with my friends when they know im kidding. but for real, no.
8. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give one year of your life.
Do you do it?
I cant remember the last person that i knew to die. it would probably be my opa. so yes, i love him and would love to see him just one time. im sure everyone would.
9.
Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
yes.
10.
Does sex=love?
no. sex is pleasure and gives you diseases if you arent careful. love is something different all on its own. you cant describe the feeling of love, its amazing and wonderful at the same time. but just because you have sex with someone doesnt mean you love them and vise versa.
11.
Are you old fashioned?
in some ways i am, in some ways im not. like getting gauges behind my parents backs.
haha
12.
Would you marry someone if they were unable to have sex?
if i loved that person, without a second thought my answer would be yes. if you love that person sex shouldnt matter.
13.
What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
i dont love them back. its the hardest thing in the world. but to tell someone you love them is just as hard when your worried about there feelings. it couldnt honestly break your heart, but when you hear them say that they love you back, its amazing.
everyone has that fear of heart break in their minds. and heart break is the hardest thing to survive, especially when there is no cure.
14.
What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up?
friends and family.
15.
Romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them?
a few months. got my heart broken.
16.
If you had to go back in time and change one thing, if you HAD to, even if you have "no regrets" what would you change?
telling someone who was like a brother to me, that i loved them. that depressed period i had from it. it was truely my darkest hour, and in that time, i was all alone.
17. Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window.
WHO do you wish was there with you?
Justin and Danni.
18.
Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying?
I would call 911 and probably start CPR. I'm too nice.
19. You are holding onto your grandmother's dying hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff.
You have to let one go to save the other which one would it be?
depends on the grandma. but i would probably pull up the baby then my grandma. but idkkk.
20.
When and how was the last time you told someone how you REALLY feel?
a few weeks ago, it felt great. :]
21.
Do you tell anyone or everyone you are going to die?
a handfull of people.
22.
What do you do with your remaining days?
everything i ever wanted, no regrets.
23.
Are you afraid to fall in love again?
sometimes. i hate being crushed and hurt and killed a bit on the inside.
Goshhhh, so deep.
What is more difficult: looking into someones eyes when telling how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they tell you how they feel?
both is difficult, but i would rather have someone be honest with me.
2. Think of the last time you were angry.
Why were you angry?
some asshole was pissing me off. i call him my brother.
3. You will die in three minutes.
Last call?
because my parents are here. i would call danni and tell her how much she changed me, michelle how amazing of a friend she is, kaitlyn and let her know that she can do anything she wants, britney that it was so much fun being her friend and to never forget that girl she used to be, and justin and let him know how i truely feel about him.
4.
If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be?
make my friends like jackass, because crazyyy people are the best and the most fun.
5. You can have one of the following two things: trust or love.
you cant truely love someone without having complete trust in them. thats how it goes.
6. You are walking to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss told you if you are late one more time youre fired.
Do you save the dog?
in a heartbeat. i dont care if i get fired or not, life is more important than any amount of money.
7.
Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
only with my friends when they know im kidding. but for real, no.
8. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give one year of your life.
Do you do it?
I cant remember the last person that i knew to die. it would probably be my opa. so yes, i love him and would love to see him just one time. im sure everyone would.
9.
Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
yes.
10.
Does sex=love?
no. sex is pleasure and gives you diseases if you arent careful. love is something different all on its own. you cant describe the feeling of love, its amazing and wonderful at the same time. but just because you have sex with someone doesnt mean you love them and vise versa.
11.
Are you old fashioned?
in some ways i am, in some ways im not. like getting gauges behind my parents backs.
haha12.
Would you marry someone if they were unable to have sex?
if i loved that person, without a second thought my answer would be yes. if you love that person sex shouldnt matter.
13.
What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
i dont love them back. its the hardest thing in the world. but to tell someone you love them is just as hard when your worried about there feelings. it couldnt honestly break your heart, but when you hear them say that they love you back, its amazing.
everyone has that fear of heart break in their minds. and heart break is the hardest thing to survive, especially when there is no cure.
14.
What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up?
friends and family.
15.
Romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them?
a few months. got my heart broken.
16.
If you had to go back in time and change one thing, if you HAD to, even if you have "no regrets" what would you change?
telling someone who was like a brother to me, that i loved them. that depressed period i had from it. it was truely my darkest hour, and in that time, i was all alone.
17. Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window.
WHO do you wish was there with you?
Justin and Danni.
18.
Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying?
I would call 911 and probably start CPR. I'm too nice.
19. You are holding onto your grandmother's dying hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff.
You have to let one go to save the other which one would it be?
depends on the grandma. but i would probably pull up the baby then my grandma. but idkkk.
20.
When and how was the last time you told someone how you REALLY feel?
a few weeks ago, it felt great. :]
21.
Do you tell anyone or everyone you are going to die?
a handfull of people.
22.
What do you do with your remaining days?
everything i ever wanted, no regrets.
23.
Are you afraid to fall in love again?
sometimes. i hate being crushed and hurt and killed a bit on the inside.
Goshhhh, so deep.
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